Freaking out

hmmm... theres a weird feeling....

after a week of studying.... i mean... i dunno what to do le... sigh

anyone got tips? Alvin? haha... any words of wisdom?

I mean... i sort of studied finish but went i look at the past exam papers... GG. realli die -.-

i mean.. there's mani kinds of fear:

1. When u never study and u wonder how bad it will get..

2. When u study like shit and u are afraid u wont get full marks

3. When u study like crap and realise u still don know shit...

no. 3 is more my kind of fear....

10 more days!!!.

crap crap crap

Convention Fever

Remember i said i was going for a medical convention?

yes the fever is settling in.. my email inbox is getting spammed daily with floods of email

about?

how melb med is superior...

how the other sch sucks

how this is more like a rivarly/social/sporty stuff than an academic conventions

i mean, they have cheers and stuff la... -.-

PLUS!!! all ang moh gg and not even mani first years...

no idea why i signed up...

sigh...

convention fever? not feeling it and dont want too...

and the t shirt... omg man... cant say anything... i will wear a jacket over....

on the left it says along with the Nike tick shaped like a stethoscope "Melbourne Med, Just better"

and on the right along with the HUGE melb uni logo..

"Beware, may invoke feelings of inadequecies.

-.-

Consolidation

Oh my goodness...

Yes... its week 12!!! my first semester is over!!!!

11 more to go....

And my exam prep is not going well

i just got back my 3rd test and yea, i didnt do too well...

i was hoping for better but oh well, results are not everyting anyway.. not too bothered by it...

back to my exam prep.... sigh

i read like 8 weeks worth of notes and realised i rmb so little... i guess i study wrong or read too fast...

din try to rmb properly... and ppl ard mi like can rmb

sometimes i wonder whether is it a mistake that i'm here? like, do i even fit in?

can i survive these 6 years...

but i guess, who am i to complain....

i mean, so mani ppl are worst than me.... remember and send your prayers to china and burma..

meanwhile, i'm just focus on what a great priviledge it is to be where i am and how mani ppl would kill for my place...

so i will just do my best and have faith that things will work out

=)

Sianzation

What happened today:

8am-9am: Lecture

9am to 11am: Study

11am to 12pm: Lunch

12pm to 3pm: Study

3pm-4pm :Nap

4pm to 6pm: Study

6pm to 7pm :Dinner

7pm to 12am :Study

Yup. that sums it all up.. too tired to type anything else...

gg to kaplonk on my bed.... nite all

Mugger

This week starts my grand mugging time...

I Have a plan, a time table and i hope to follow it....

today been studying from 3pm till 11pm..

tml i onli have classes from 8-9 am... and will study the whole day....

and if i get bored... i will pract my interviewing skills with my fren... haha... great life rite? NOT!!

-.-

here's a mini self revision.. the following is just a small intro to body systems and i test myself w/o any notes... here i go....

1. Digestive system (stomach, liver,intestines)
Function: ingestion and processing of foodstuff for distribution and use by cells and the elimination of waste products.

2. Circulatory System (blood, heart, blood vessels)
Function:transport of materials between cells

3. Respiratory System (lungs, airways)
Function:the exchange of gases(oxygen and carbon dioxide) between internal and external environment.

4. Musculoskeletal system (skeletal muscles, bones)
Function:To provide structural support and movements

5. Integumentary System (skin)
Function:to provide protection from external environment

6. Urinary System (kidneys, bladders)
Function:To maintain water an solute balance and elimination of water soluble waste.

7. Nervous System (brain, spinal cord)
Function:To provide coordination of body function through the release of electrical signals and regulatory molecules

8. Endocrine System (pituitary, thyroid, adrenal glands)
Function:to provide coordination of body function through the synthesis and release of regulatory molecules (hormones)

9. Immune system (thymus, spleen, lymph nodes)
Function:To protect the body against pathogens

10. Reproductive System (ovaires, uterus, testes)
Function: For perpetuation of the species



This is the first set of notes onli thats why so little info... from here on its goes downhill.... haha
just an intro to body systems..

-.-


from then on we go into each system and cellular processes, all the variations and stuff. quite some detail le and then they say its for further intro to future years and its just the tip of the ice berg...

-.-

for eg the immune system...

got neutrophils, macrophages, B cells and T cells and how they control inflammation by releasing cytokines and interleukins and how the antigens bind to different receptors. How they are activated and the receptors got various isotypes and proliferate by clonal selection so on....

more to come in later details....

my nervous system shutting down le... haha.. gd nite..

Fa Fu... -.-

By special request:

Fa Fu: The transient condition of being horizontally challenged, as a result of continous built up of adipose tissue within the connective tissue layer, resulting in greater "resistance" and compressibility, stemming from being lifeless* and the summation effect of being a stressed student during winter.

* Refer to previous definition of Lifeless:

LIFELESS defined in lawrence's dictionary as : a depressed state of submerging oneself in textbooks towards a honourable quest for knowledge, resulting in a severe lack of social activities encompassing physical activity, hanging out at the movies and other random stuff.

-.-

ppl keep saying i lose weight and look skinny lo... so contrasting.. haha

A picture paints a thousand words

This first sent is my surprise party throw by my cell group.. haha... realli nice of them...

the home baked cheesecake was baked by one of my best frens here... so yea... its realli yummy... hahah... like way better then outside one...

This is the singapore med students. We had the bbq and like i said, there are ard 30 of us. hahha

This set is from the celebration that the med students had for mi... we ate dominoes for lunch then later went to KOKO black for dessert... scroll down to see more on the celebration.. haha





On the left here is the seafood inari that i strongly recommend.. crab with mayo and beancurd skin... man... heavenly... my fav.. haha

and on the left is my wardrobe... eh no.. i mean my sofa and makeshift wardrobe... its uber messy... haha... can die man.. i shld pack it.. =)

The power of science

Ever wondered what science is for? All the useless stuff u had to memorise...

Ever went up to a girl and stumble.stammer?

Even frozen up in fear?


Those days are gone...

Now u can choose from a wide range of SCIENTIFIC pick up lines...



It will blow her mind... like realli... blow... no kidding... KABOOM!

It WILL blow your date away (for better or for worst)



1. Using knowledge of genetics

Hey girl, you look my complementary strand of DNA... u wanna wind up together?

(rmb that DNA consist of 2 complementary strands winding to form a double helix)



2. Using Neuroscience

Hey babe, u know many other guys will say that u are hot. but i wont. (insert charming smile)

u have the ability to change the membrane potential of my brain cells and fire propagating action potentials which triggers various sympathetic arousal unlike any i've felt before.



3. Using Embryology

Hey girl, i am haploid 1N and u are haploid 2N. i have to ability to make u haploid 1N and together we can create diploid 2N. u wanna see how?

(male gamates are haploid 1N and female is haploid 2N until fertilization where they become haploid 1N and when a fertilizations occurs the cell(future bay) is diploid 2N)



4. Using Biochemistry

Hey girl, u activate my beta-adrenoreceptors, starting a chemical cascade involving G-proteins that activate adenyl cyclase and convert ATP to cAMP that activates protein kinase A that causes cellular changes, resulting in an uncontrollable stimulation.



5. Using thermoregulation

Hey girl, i notice u are not wearing much. Do u want to maximise our heat gain by conduction? though i think u will warm me because the heat gradient is higher at your end.

(Heat travels frm higher gradient(temp) to lower. ie she is hot)



6. Using anatomy

Hey girl, there are many unfaithful guys around but i am different. No matter where u go or what you do, i will be like nerves, faithful cells that follows other cells during development.



7. Using Pharmocology

Hey girl, i have a high efficacy. No matter what i do, how much or less, i will always achieve a maximum response.

(efficacy = ability of drug to produce a response)

and finally...

8. Using plain logic
Hey baby, i know lawrence. Wanna go out? (insert charming smile and my pic)

=) hahhahahaha...

so with such a wide variety of scientific pick up lines to choose from, why not choose one today.

get one, get out...

the world is your playground

3 simple principles

Pick. Execute. Enjoy (P.E.E.)

=)

sorry i was bored.... and i wrote this without the help of my notes so they shld be correct (scientifically)

haha.. but anyways... if u all wanna try go ahead man,.. muz tell mi...

i strongly recommend no. 8 and no. 1.. haha...

go for it!!!

anyways this end the series of mega uploads...

tml have to start serious studying...

exams soon even though sem 1 is not counted towards final score, i still wanna do the best i can... haha..

In reply to Jm

so jm that time u asked ask to tell u whether u are wrong or right...

ter say u are wrong.. LOL..

but anyways...

this kinda stuff no wrong no right... no black no white... there is no light, and u just gotta hold on tight..

WOW... THAT ACTUALLY SOUNDS COOL... hahaha...

-.-

MOVING ON....

this is what u wrote...

"Love is great, love conquers all."

often i alw wonder abt this phrase whether issit true or not. but i believe this phrase is true most of the time, well in my context tat is. coz i noe tat if u truly love the person, no matter wad he/she does, u are able to accept it or at least highlight the problem out to yr partner and try to find a soln tgt. well this is a truly ideal situation. but things doesnt alw swing this way. sometimes u need to find a soln on yr own esp when ur partner is very pissed/irritated with u. i believe tat alot of ppl, guys esp, alw tell the partner tat he/she wun do it agn and so on whenever he/she did something wrong. it happens so tat nx time, it happened agn. it is like u are contradicting yrself - u promising yr partner and u did the opposite thing. there is a chinese saying - 'if u dun hav such a big mouth, dun blow such a big trumpet.' i think it is along this line. hahas. well i told my fren once - 'saying/promising doesnt mean anything. action does.' well i find this phrase tat i told my fren very true. ppl wud wan to see action being done, rather than empty promises.

Love conquers all? hmmm

spoken like a true optimist by perceived by a true realist.

i guess in love, u have to be realistic...

i mean, ur love is great it conquers all... but one thing it cannot conquer, is your expection...
which kinda arises from your love too.. which complicates matters...

anyways this is my own opinion haha... spoken from one who swears off relationships... haha
spoken by one who knows and believes in love but yet chooses to stay away...

=)

yes.. u can love a person with all u can. all your heart... but when your expectations are not met...

u will be disappointed and yes... your love cannot help u here because it is the love that creates the expectation...

like for example...

you are sick and u want your gf (using gf as an example cos i'm a boy/man/man-child, not a sexist)
yet you dont want to tell her to come or to sms you to ask u how u are....
u EXPECT them to come and to care...
and even though they don wanna disturb and dont know if u want them over, u are too proud to ask or just want them to come over by their own accord.

and if they dont... u will blame them... and mayb even think they don care if they nv sms u or call u or anything....

the fact is that mayb they do and jsut don wanna disturb u...

but the problem is u expect them to be there...

and the disappointment is realli great when u realise someone u thought will be there for u when u really need is not there.

and love cannot overcome this.. because u expect them to out of love

or

when your gf promises u smth but in the end cannot do it or say that she cant do it but cannot tell u the reason...

can u realli just say "love conquers all" ?

not u cant simply because u are human..

u can accept it or smth but u will be disappointed... in the end u think u can suppress it but for how long? is it realli you to suppress it? do u have to suppress it? will u crack eventually?

as long as u are disappointed... love cannot conquer it all... and eventually... u will crack...

so deal with it... even if its not the first time it comes out... do it...
and sometimes even if u say u wont do smth again... more often than not u will again...

for eg expectations...

as long as your partner falls short u WILL be disappointed...

is it your expectations? is it her contribution?

there is no ans...

love does not conquer it all....

but u can conquer love... with realism... and u will conquer your expectations....

and if u still cant...

do u let go?

or do u hold on...

that will determine love...

i'll leave u with that

A human island

An island:

1.
a tract of land completely surrounded by water, and not large enough to be called a continent.
2.
something resembling an island, esp. in being isolated or having little or no direct communication with others

Ive been wondering, is there ever such a thing as a human island?

They say that no man is an island and one person cannot survive by himself...

They say that u cannot choose to live by yourself but what happens if that choice is not made by u...

using this analogy...

Mayb u were once a country... u have neighbouring "states"

but slowly, by nature(earthquakes) or other factors(alienation, border disputes)

u start to draw a finer line... a boundary.... whether u push yourself away or other ppl force u too... by the time u realise it... u've already drifted away. (ie u become an island)

so by definition... (here we go again... ) =)

A human island defined by the lawtionary... <--- for the linguistically challenged it means lawrence's dictionary...

A human island: A resultant state of intense solitude, arising from segregation, invariable whether willingly or unknowingly. One may additionally feel that he or she is detested, unwanted and uninvited.

sometimes in life... u distance yourself from others....

mayb to protect yourself
mayb to protect them
mayb because u dont trust others

or somtimes in life, ppl force u to distance yourself from them

be it in an obvious way: "GET THE HELL OUT!"

or

being passive aggressive (which i find realli worst)

kinda like... when u are there, sending u weird vibes or by subtle actions/words that indirectly tell u u are not welcome, whilst in the process making OTHERS think u are welcomed by them.

and this is realli scary...

whether u distance yourself, or others force u away... the end result is the same...

if someone forces u away, will u stay?

yes i would. but not for that person. i stay for my own reasons as well as others.

tying this in with JM's porcupine analogy.

i quote:

it was during winter, there were 2 porcupines. fearing tat they may die from the winter cold, they began to cuddle up to each other. as they got closer to each other, their quills began to poke each other - in the process, hurting the both of them. fearing tat this may happen agn, they decided to stay away from each other, so as to prevent themselves from gettin hurt agn. however, the winter got too cold and both of them died as they couldnt get any warmth by their own.

however there were another 2 more porcupines, they both know tat if they cuddle too close to each other, they will hurt themselves. however to prevent this from happening, they maintain a small distance from each other, but still can receive warmth from each other. thus in this cold winter, both of them survive.

so the morale of this analogy is tat in a relationship, even the couple need personal space for themselves. being close to each other is gd, however dun get too close as it may infringe in each other personal space. thus the couple need to respect each other personal space and try not to infringe in it.

To some extent the moral of this analogy is meaningful but the analogy is flawed.

my arguement is twofold.

Firstly, the anterior part of the porcupine (ie face chest belly) does not have quills. so they should face each other within that part and transfer heat from there...

furthermore if two porcupines cuddle up to each other (i presume is curl up next to each other),
u reduce your surface area for heat loss and thereby reduce the capacity for heat transfer by conduction and radiation from one porcupine to another. =)

therefore if u cuddle, u are actually doing far worst that if u dont and just transfer heat via the anterior non-quill parts of yourself, maximising the surface area for heat transfer.

OR

secondly, might as well shift to a warmer place together.. -.-

using my theory of human islandology

in the first case, as soon as you hurt each other, u start to pull away...

in not wanting to hurt anyone, u actually hurt everyone...

why turn ur back at the first sign of trouble?

u are a couple, in a relationship together. u will hurt each other... no matter u do it on purpose or not.. YOU WILL.

why?

simple because u are in a relationship. U CARE abt each other.

if there is no hurt, frankly it means one does not care..

an eg... 2 islands fighting over smth on the border

the fight arise because both want smth and both care abt that smth. if not, there would be no fight

and if two of them distance themselves, no one would get it.

likewise in a relationship, u are working towards making it work and as soon as u distance yourself, the chances of it working is low to zilch.

so now what? distance is bad?

NO! familiarity breeds comtempt and i have been a strong advocate of this..

distance is necessary but there will come a point where u will want someone most of the time. u will want to tell the person everything. because u share so much together.. u cant live without the other person.

u will need distance but that distance is not for space but to realise that u cannot do without the other person.

"The true meaning of living with can only be found through living without"
-Lawrence 2008

so when u want space, dont distance yourself.

build a bridge across the 2 island. With each taking steps to meet in the center. each step is like a step foward to eventually meeting in the center.

if u dont want to, dont walk on the bridge. take a step back but your partner will be in the center, waiting for you whenever u are ready and vice versa. u can see ur each other from your respective position. (seeing in this case is not literal sight but understanding and accepting of each other's view points)

either way, two will be continously walking, eventually meeting in the centre and hopefully at the end, u will end up with the shortest bridge possible..

as per the second case...

the two porcupines do not cuddle so close... they suffer but suffer seperately...

the fact that they cuddle close already means they want/need each other and if given a choice(remove) their quills, they would definitely have contact.
so they survive not because they give each other space but they distance themselves because they think they cannot stay together and choose the easy way out, after seeing previous failures
using their quills as an excuse...
sometimes, u have to suffer together. even if u keep poking each other... u stay together because u share smth in common.

u keep tryin... so mani winters in your life... get used to it...

a relationship means sacrifice, and not turing your back at the first sign of trouble.

back to my analogy...

if winter crosses both countries, if u stay together, u increase your surface area and allow the winter to spread acros two areas...

if u distance ur self, each feels the full impact of the winter seperately..

and if u still have that bridge, meet up on the bridge and stay there...
(bridge got lesser surface area that the island and thus lesser chance for snow/rain to fall)
and if u zai enough, build a sheltered bridge..

so in essence,

the porcupine analogy is flawed and chooses the easy way out, using pessimism and space as an excuse.

ie if both porcupine work together to dig a burrow (work harder together) they will prevail.

cos they generate heat with the work =)

and end up with a shelter to house them both.

so i say chuck it. use my analogy!

human islandology. muahaha

Birthday Update

i dunno why blogger don allow me to post my own pics into a slide show? anyone know how to do it?
or if u wanna see my birthday pics, go to my facebook... tio tag in all the unglam pics.. hahaha..

anyways... so yea....

i kinda had 2 celebrations here.. haha...

the first one was lunch at dominoes pizza with the singapore med ppl.. there are ard 30 of us so yea... the connection quite strong... hahaha...

i think we ordered 5 pizzas (large) for 40 bucks.. haha.. 1 large pizza arrd 8 bucks... sg where to find? and its DAMN nice... hahaha...
so we ate there at dominoes which was my first time cause i always takeaway... just eat tok cock sing song not much.. haha..

then after that we went to KOKO black for "dessert" <---- nearly spelled desert

-.-

MOVING ON......

yea.. i have some vanilla bean icecream with caramel and nuts with some choc on it.. it was good but damn sweet...

by the way..

the hot choc and the cafes in aus are realli good..
the cakes are also damn nice...
so are the western food and the price some quite resonable...
the sushi oso quite ownage..

if u guys come over i bring u guys go try

and yea.. KOKO black is smth like a chocolate cafe.. they sell chocs and all.. got special drinks and designer deserts haha...

SUPER SWEET..

but nice la...

then after that...

went home to slack the whole day... haha....

then later at night went to church cell group....

then normally they go out for dinner after that...

cos i jsut knew them so i tot they wont know its my birthday...

so they said got exams then all not gg for dinner.. so me and my frens (who stay nearby me) asked mi to go to the supermarket with them.. then by that time i abit emo/blur/tired so i din suspect anything.. haha..

then went i got back.. they open their door(they stay next door to me) and i saw like a flash or smth...

immediately i tot... siao liaoz... electric shock? cos not raining cant be lightning..

then went i got in to put down the bags.. they surprise me with a cake..

THEN CAME THE PROBLEMS...

they had 4 HUGE candles.... do u know what that means??

it means i'm freaaggin 40!!!! haha... im not.. im 22.... (though i dont look it)

and it doesnt help some of them are born in 1990... hahah.. i feel old... and cold too (just for rhyming purposes)

so yea... then to my surprise... dinner/supper was DOMINOES pizza again... but yea... not complaining... hahah....

and my frens oso secretly baked a cake for mi and yea.. it was realli nice... not cause it was homebaked... like realli good.... i have paid for cakes that taste worst... it was realli nice...

so touched.. haha...

i have great frens back home and yea.. its realli good to have good frens here...

realised that i am realli veri lucky... like super....

and yea... on a side point....

may our thoughts and prayers turn to myanmar and china....

yea... though sometimes we keep complaining and stuff... there are people so much worst... and yea... even though its your birthday... we must still know that life is not abt us alone and we must rmb others even in the most self-centered situations...

ok... im gg off to buy some lunch... haha...

take care... update again....

PS. MAN U WON CHAMPIONS LEAGUE!!!

i support liverpool but yea... as long as chelsea don win... =)

PS. u rmb those actors that are paid for medical students to practice their clinical skills on? there is a free session to practice again so i booked it.. kiasu rite? haha... i mean... i need all the practice i can get...

Overdue updates

Ok... so i haven blogged in awhile....

and my last post i think made some of u guys worry... hahaha...

erm... i'm ok i think it was the stress and some other problems... but yea... im fine...

So..... my test today....

It did not go too well but then again it could have been much worst... i realised i need to find a new way to study but yea... don think i will fail....

and i got my HP essay back too... realli blessed for that ahaha...

did think i was gg to fail and cos my essay quite similar to a fren's, i tot will kana colluding.. but in the end, i did quite well and wont be complaning already...

and the past few days i have just been studying...

genetics
embryology
signal transduction in cells
pharmocology

damn irri.. i hate them all hhah sigh....

hope u guys are all good... i will backdate/reupdate... hahaha

things to update:

1.jm's theory
2.my birthday

think thats it, anything i miss u guys can say.. =)

Damn shitty

sigh.. i feel damn shitty now...

i had my birthday yesterday which was good for awhile... but now... back to reality....

i just read all u guys blogs and got some stuff to say but oso nv...

no mood to write anything oso...

need to get back to studyin.. test nxt fri...

update u guys on my birthday stuff soon....

back to my shitty day...

Untouched By Time

now its like 1147 in melb. haha... in 13 mins it will be my birthday...

oh well, just another day haha...

but i HAVE TO SAY!!

untouched by time.. hahaha

i mean.. im 22 liaoz and i still look like im 17 or 18 (some ppl say younger)

and no one says i look 22 (i quite like it)

i just hope that on day even when im 50, i will still look 25... hahaha

so yea.. keep the compliments coming... haaha

Idiot Blogger

Wah lao.... zzzzzzz

i posted smth then blogger tell mi got some problem.... sigh

oh well.. i think i was saying smth abt studying genetics yesterday. like the whole day.

and on tuesday, i had my kung fu grading. getting my white belt... -.-

haha.. i think i shld be able to get it. oh well... hahaha.

and on wed, i had my ICM tutorial.

ICM = Intro to Clinical Management

its like teaching us how to interview patients, what info we need and stuff.

its a balance of getting medical info and communication skills, plus memory work.

not as easy as it seems...

and for our exam(its called the OSCE)

OSCE= Objective Structured Clinical Examination

they pay actors to be patients and yeam its realli realli realistic. haha

and for pract, they came to class and i was one of 4 students the teacher picked to interview her(prolly cos i don talk much in class)

man was i nervous... haha.. i think i was shaking la but i didnt show it.

there is sort of like a checklist and halfway i just tot aiya to hell with it, just talk to her normally and see what comes...

to my surprise, it just flowed and yea, i got all the info while making the patient feel at ease.

The comments:
the "patient" enjoyed it and said it was just like a conversation, and i was very friendly. haha
my teacher say i did well, and it didnt seem like a consultation, whilst still managing to get all the required info. she oso added that she and the class was like being sucked into our conversation, waiting to see what happens next.

and that i kinda realised... yes... this is what i wanted all along

yea.. i do stuff differently...

i'll nv be the smartest person or the person who rmbs the most stuff...
i never will be the best doctor there is...
but i can make the patient feel good...
i can do stuff in my own way and still achieve the desired result...
and yea...
i enjoyed the "consultation"

haha...

today had my genetics pract.

had to draw family trees and stuff... have to predict the risk of genetic conditions. so mani types and kinds of mutations.

types:
Autosomal Dominant
Autosomal Recessive
X- linked dominant
X- linked recessive

so mani la... got damn blur... had to go for the pract twice... haha.. 6 hrs gone.. -.-

lol... ter ar... how i know what i wanna go into sia... i mean.. u want and u can is 2 so diff tingys

but i do hope i can get into surgery

OB/GYN(surgery) , neurosurgery or cardiothoracic surgery also...

so tough and compeititive. sigh... but i will do my best..

truth is i'll settle for surgery.. haha... or if i cant, psychiatry...

i hope to work in a govt hospital....

though mani frens ask mi to open clinic and stuff. like have a few doctors work together haha..

co-op medicine. like get a plastic surgeon, psy, ob/gyn/ paediatrician/ lawyer/ TCM practioner and stuff.... sounds fun and all but yea... i would be a surgeon anytime... haha

so i guess this is my plans for now... and for my year 3 i have 1 year of research.

hope to get surgery at Royal Melbourne Hospital
or prolly some research in neuroscience.

alot to choose from haven seen all.. can choose to do in Singapore oso LOL.

anyways hope u guys are good. got to go back to studyin le.. good luck

Time Flies

Actually, one thought is really scary...

which is time realli flies....

i mean. before it was like i just started my sem 1 of 12 (-.-)

sem 1 has 12 weeks in total of sch. and now its like week 10. in ard 1 mths time my exams will END.

that is fast....

not that im complaining.. i realli hope to graduate and start working...

i grad in 2013.... haha.. that is sooo sad....

and its like almost mid year liaoz.... time realli flies. we realli have to treasure what we have...

also, have to thank lay see.

bcos of her, now i have a life. haha.. she intro mi this tv streaming link where i can see tv/movies...

hahaha... shiok.... seeing "Monk" and "Greys Anatomy"

but i onli got like 6gb of bandwidth per month so can see limited stuff. haha.

anyways got exams oso so shld watch less

so my point is....

i making one step away from totally LIFELESS

i do have stuff i like.

i do enjoy non medical stuff...

i am still human

=)

Back to work

So 6 days after i fell sick, i have recovered.

yay for me.

so how did i celebrate?

i studied the whole topic of genetics. sigh. and i bought my fav sushi from a place called sea salt.

sells damn goog sushi. if u guys come i bring u go. haha. i'll take some picts nxt time. (normally it gets eaten too fast for pics).

my fav ones:

cripsy chicken sushi
cooked salmon sushi
chicken teriyaki sushi
seafood inari (5 stars for this one)

learning genetics is rather depressing

u know how ppl say.. keep gg for regular checkups and stuff

and nxt time would u do a genetic test on your child (pre-natally)

i mean, i dunno. i guess sometimes ignorance is bliss.

even if u find out there is smth, i mean. what can u do.

is not knowing better? i guess for this i'd rather not know...

unless i know and i know it can be cured. =) haha

mayb its fate? its in God's hand.

anyway congrats on jm's 5th mth and the fact he has a blog. looking forward to more interesting posts. haha.

happy 22th birthday to Daniel Lim (im bad at rmbing birthdays)

Day 4 of my MC

Well i haven left my apartment in 48 hours.

and yesterday i realli felt like dying. man..

my fever hit 39.9 and i was cowering under the blanket and i couldnt stop shivering.

in physiological terms, means my body's temp (39.9 degrees celsius) has not reached my hypothalamic set point (which normally would be 37 and i don wanna think what is it now)

therefore my body will shiver to produce heat to reach the new temperature.

i mean seriously, ive nv been so scared to slp cos i scared my temp will over shoot 40 and disrupt and my phospholipid bilayers, resulting in cell death (ie losing 50 IQ points)

oh well. now its back down to 37.2 so its just a slight fever. sigh.

and ive added laysee to my super sad list of friends with blogs so if any of u have, tell mi so i can add to my "list" (4 is not a list actually, more like a group. -.-)

hmm. i was bored so i read some medical journals. (see, i HAVE a life)

its kinda like mac "I'm loving it"

and when its bad, its like nike " Just do it"

and when it seems impossible, its adidas " Impossible is nth" or energizer "never say die"

and when u fail, its like AVIS "we try harder"

and when we realli need a spark, its like 3M "innovation"

when u miss lectures, its like samsung, "digitally yours" (online lectures)

and realli, all over, its like motorola "intelligence everywhere"

-.-

back to my point.

research was done to prove that breastfeeding increases ur IQ.

yes it does.

do u see the irony?

To be pro, u have to "suck" growing up..
u need to suck bad

=)

kids were tested at 6.5 years old scored better on the WAIS test

so yea it u have kids, make sure they suck.

=)

A feeling of nostalgia

Was just reading terenze's blog yesterday. haha.

din know u kept a blog in jc. but i think if i read it in JC, the impact wouldnt be as big.

haha. yes it brought back TONNNES of memories and a sense of nostalgia

and since Terenze so support my definitions, (he posted it on his blog and referenced it) i decided to make another one.

Nostalgia defined by Law's Dictionary: A multitude of neurons firing, resulting in waves of picturesque images flowing through your mind, so concrete that it triggers ur senses, placing one in a transient state of immoderate sentimental yearning to return to that very situation.

haha. after reading his JC posts, yk,ls,jm if u haven read go read haha. its realli nice.

and yea. kinda din realise i was that lame and would purposely make jokes when ppl are eating so that they would just spit out food.

i kinda still do it now though. just that i changed it to water. safer and cleaner.
(see... GROWTH!!!) =)

and yea. i realli miss the jc days. even though i suffered every single day and realli hated gg to sch. haha.

u guys made it so much easier. and i will always rmb u guys telling mi to study. jm copying my notes for mi while i sleep. ( if i could give out nobel prizes i would give one for this )

how about a law prize? a $2 voucher to spend on buying any of my things. *rofl*

and rushing down to the canteen everytime to queue for the western stall and after that we eat at the chi one where we can pick the food so much so that the auntie knows us so well.

and i'll always rmb the one time i skipped maths lecture and ate in the canteen with mr tan soi cheng (who was my maths tutor)

personal fav that one.

and who can forget all the lame videos... haha..

i guess amongst the five of us.

i prolly was the most crappy one.

jm was the accomodating one, supporting me in my quest to bring laughter to the world (and in the process spew out food)
and as ter pointed out has an unfathomable threshold for jokes. which we all appreciate im sure =)

ls and yk were more of the grounded ones. steady and always keeping us in check.

Ter hard to say LOL. he fluctuates between me and jm and ls and yk.

haha.

i miss the jc days!! haha

and yea. my sec sch as well as army days too.

funny i don realli miss my pri sch days. prolly cos i spent it playing digimon and i DEFINITELY do not miss DIGIMON. =)

and my birthday is in a week. turning 22 but still look 17 and think like 15. =)

back to cleaning my damn dirty apartment. hopefully it will remove the dirt and i can recover soon. fever still on and off. sigh.

Recovery Phrase

So after a night of sponging and staying at home for an entire day, eating nth but ceral and 2 sushi, im a LITTLE better.

and so yea. i listened to the 2 online recordings of the lectures that i missed. and yea. it is BORING... i still prefer being in the real lecture (weird i know.. )

haha.

and after i finished the two lectures, my temp increased by 1 degree

-.-

i oso dunno why. sigh. haha. mayb thats the reason why i got sick in the first place. cos i feel sick on monday which was the start of the series of embryology lectures which are killing me.

anyway i got my 2nd mid sem test back. the one i was quite sure i was gonna fail.

and yea. i did quite well (way better than expected) 

but one of the reasons was because of repeated questions. 

oh well. have to catch up soon. this week is mugging week.

and i realli hope i will recover for good

=)

=(

its been a rather bad week so far.

i missed 2 lectures.

why?

i have foreign invaders in my body..
my immune cells are working and produce interleukins 1 and 6
this elevates prostaglandin biosynthesis in the hypothalamus
this increases my hypotalamic set point (normal is 37 degrees celsius)
my body inhibits heat loss
i'm vasoconstricted and shivering
and if all goes well(hopefully soon), after the immune system stops working, my thalamic set point will be back to normal
my body will then activiate heat loss mechanisms
leading to vasodilation and sweating

so in essence..

i have a fever =)

other symptoms:
ulcers
loss of appetite
light headedness
chest discomfort
muscle aches

i have 4 days off sch. and i cant study =(
my temp increases after that. lol.
i hope i recover soon. cant skip any more lects.

I HATE EMBRYOLOGY!!!!

MMR

After showing some immunity to TB and Hep B, i tot i was on fire and immune to everything. haha...

so went i checked the board, i have to take a MMR jab cos i am negative for mumps and measles.

oh well.. not complaining. I used to be afraid of jabs and needles. LOL. hard to imagine rite.

But yea, nowadays i force myself to look at needles and stuff and yea, slowly im getting accustomed to it. haha.

Anyways my flight is confirmed so u guys might wanna start making plans. =) haha. 

AO: if u back muz meet up yea. or else nxt year liaoz. 

Huang: u better get 3 star when i come back. u fail i confirm laugh at u.

jm: come back meet st lehz.. haha... 6 mths liaoz. =)

to the rest: MEET MI!!!!!

today damn slack. and had a lecture on embryology. damn sianz. like a zillion new terms. can die. but oh well. its all super interesting. 

contrary to popular belief, its quite hard to get pregnant. haha.

exams piling up soon. need to start revising..

wish me luck

Homebound!

Heyz all...

I'll be back in july! =)

short while but its better than nth.

reach on 13 july fly on 19 july

start making plans? haha

The Singapoer Connection

Heyz,

Mayb some of you guys are wondering how many singaporeans are here in my course.

75 internation students

roughly 30 singapore students.

ZAI rite.

Most of them are A levels. haha.. all top 5 jc la. (except 2 NYJC)

the standard. 4As with S papers. scary.

and one of them took part in WCG got 8th place. Represented singapore. -.- haha

had a bbq with them that time. mayb will post some pics up. or u can see my facebook. all unglam pics. haha.

What i did today:

Went to town to look for my winter jacket. trying to look for a good one and thin. I saw some i like it was ard 300 bucks. sianz. oh well.

have to get back to studyin. see ya =)

A Rush of Excitement

Here's a dissection kit...

Everytime i see it i get a rush....

i think im addicted to it...

Today i did my 2nd anatomy pract. i got to...

1. perform an injection

2. insert an IV

3. perform an intercostal cathoder ( poke a needle into the chest)

4. remove fluid from a knee cap

5. stitch up an incision

6. make a incision

It was really cool and i learnt alot. My personal favourite was cutting with a scapel and stitching the wound.

At first i tot i would not be prepared to see a cadaver. Or that my hands would be shaking.

Well it was.. i think i was shaking with excitment.

I guess when i picked up the scapel, it all went away. And in my first incision, i went abit too deep. haha.. got the muscle.

but it was realli fun and i hope to do more...

=)