Assimilated Dangers

Ever wondered what's dangerous in the world around us?

What are the dangers that we assimilate into our lives?

The chance of being hit by an object thrust from a high level - 50%

The chance of being hit by a car - 50%? Not sure

You get my point..

The fact that we are so used to so many dangers in our lives, so much so that we do not even hesitate whether to go out or while we are jay-walking.

I think if you are staying in the States, you have to learn to adapt to many new dangers.

Reflecting on the shooting that occured in Germany.

We should be so grateful that we do not have to assimilate the dangers of being shot into our lives.

Think about those who lost their lives.

Think of their families.

Think of those who survived.

Think of their families.

How do u think they will react to any sound that remotely sounds like a gun shot?

How do you think they will react to someone barging into their class?

Just pray this is one danger we will never ever need to adapt to.

One person can never change the world.

Even Mr. Obama cannot change the world.

BUT

As long as there is one person willing to try there is always hope.

REally?

Isn't that just a stupid cliche?

I guess maybe it really is.

But the problem is we do not need such cliches.

We need to change our mindset.

The mindset that we cannot make a difference.

Who can define difference?

It's us.

Define the difference.

Deliver the change.

The end of hope

What do you do when hope ends?

Optimistic people will say that hope is limitless. As long as there is life there is hope.

Is there really?

Tell that to the victims of the shooting in Germany

Tell that to their families

Tell that to the families of the shooter

Tell that to those how was fighting the war in Iraq

Tell them to the victims and families of the Victoria bushfires

Compared to them what am i? How single-minded of me to consider my life hopeless.

I have a laptop and a shelter over my head. I'm already within the top 10% of the world's wealthiest inhabitants (believe it or not)

With the end of hope,

what do you cling on?

what lies do you tell to others?

what charade do you live?

what do you rationalise?

what makes you get up of bed the next day?

what do you pray for?

Do you pray for hope? or pray for the release of hope?

Hope is worst when elevated, and even worst when kept a secret.

Is hope love? or do you love hope?

Is there a difference?

Get up tomorrow. Get up tomorrow and you'll find out...

New Direction

I think i should start to rethink what i want to do with my life.

Starting with this blog..

Well the history of this boring blog started in 2007

I first came to melbourne to do my college fresh out of carring jerry cans in the army (pun intended for yx)

And my friends wanted to know what i was up to and so this blog came about.

But now that i think about it. I guess why would people want to read about my life.

I mean, how significant is my life?

How will people reading about my life benefit them? Well, sure sometimes i do post some stuff up for fun, hoping to make people laugh (as most of u know that's all i do really)

But i guess i want something more. Something to remind me that this world does not revolve around me.

That i alone am insignificant in this world. I can never impact it in the way i want to.

So i guess this blog will be more like my previous post where people have said its too "chim"

As an aside i've made a new resolution. It's to speak proper english so i'll do my best to type in grammatically correct sentences and speak without the singlish slang. Try it. Its impossible >.<

Anyway back to the main point, i guess i'll use my blog to just post up certain reflections and while the people reading (i'm not sure if ppl read) make not fully understand, i hope it will evoke certain thoughts and emotions.

At least it will take the focus away from me and hopefully we will all gain something from it.

I'll update more after my test on monday >.<.

Pray for me =)

TRUST

I guess ever since i've came back to Melbourne in 2009. Alot of things have been different.

Which has lead me to think and reflect upon various expects of my life.

Such as:

Relationships

Studies/Expectations

Goals/Resolution

What will I invest my time in? What do i hope to achieve? What will i learn?

I guess the hardest lessons in life cannot be truly learnt without experience. It may sound like a cliche. But i guess its true in certain aspects of my life.

I guess a really important lesson i've learnt is Trust.

Well what is trust. The generic definition the dictionary gives is that we perceive to be trust. What the people believe trust to be.

We hear it in songs.

Our friends tell us that.

Our soulmates yearn for that.

Children want it from their parents.

But what are it's implications? What are the sacrifices?

Can u trust something you cannot see? Can you believe in something that does not exist?

People wait a life time to learn how to trust. And some wait a lifetime waiting for their trust to be reciprocated, only just to find that it's never there.

Is trust the hope we hold onto?

Is trust the fantasy we hope to have?

What aspects of our lives really require trust?

I do not claim to have the answer to that question.

Putting religious matters aside where i feel a certain degree of trust is crucial, i feel the relationships we build with each other deserves a large amount of trust.

However, do we really have what it takes to summon ridiculous amounts of trust that smashes all perceptions of rationality?

To be able to hold on to an idea/concept/fairytale where every single piece of evidence says otherwise.

Always looking out for signs that will get you through each day. And when you feel that it's slipping through your grasps, you hold onto it tighter, unaware of the long term consequences it has.

The weird thing about humans is we have needs. We have feelings. Some people let emotions drive them and some drive away all emotions. That's analogous to individuals who trust and those who don't.

Me? I'm optimisically holding on to a pessimistic situation. I hold on to an idea despite nothing backing me up. No one to catch me when i fall down the flights of trust i've climbed steadily over the years.

I believe i matter and while i may be forgotten or forsaken, i will try not to be forlorn.

Because i trust. I have to and its all i have.

I believe one can pray to be loved, but never ever pray not to love.

So what is trust to me?

It

Takes
Ridiculous
Unconditional
Sacrifices
Truly

But in

True
Relationships
Unconditional
Sacrifices are
Timeless

So hold on. Trust. Because even the worst form of disappointment can be negated by the best form of trust.

Song of the day

Dashboard Confessional - Stolen

Not so much the lyrics but the tune and stuff. the overall presentation of the song.

Going to play tennis tml and mayb gym...

=)