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Ter: haha... lol.. its like that one la... u study so much abt diseases u sure think u have. like i realise i always show the symptoms of what i am studying. haha... oh well.. some things are out of our control... cannot help one.

Angel: haha... i saw the star-like thingy mark made.. nice haha... ask him to teach me!!! lol
and i do not sound desperate on Jm's blog haha... i just need some juice to spice up my boring life. haha...

JM: oiz pics lehz... and when can we meet the girl? i can do a examination for her? haha... i need volunteers haha...

Ao: wah... how come emotionally detached? i duno about that. some ppl say its good for the job and some ppl say its not. but depends on the context. hard to say also. but i'm too emotionally involved one lor. sometimes see patient also cannot bear to look at them

anyways my life is around the same.

and i finally felt a liver, measuring at 13cm. haha... its some ang moh guy. he measured mine is around 10cm. dunno correct not...

been tryin to finish up my essay... realli need motivation. although i work best when its like the week b4 and i'm realli under pressure to do it. haha... sad rite... like i can do it in 6 hours just burning one night of oil. =)

but doesnt work for my studying though. haha... study i need lots of time which brings me back to my point i have a test on 9 sept. 40 lectures to study. sigh. im on like the 5th one. so dead. haha...

so im gg to try to burn the midnight oil today and hope it gets finished. wish me luck...

Sorry

Hey guys,

Sorry for the long hiatus...

Anyways, i've just been swamped with stuff, drowning in my work already.

So its now like week 6 of 14 of my second semester. realli cant wait to go back to sg..

The weather is freezing now. one of the coldest august in 4 years so yea..

anyway i'm doing my Health practice essay(25oo words)

and i'm behind in my weekly research

and i'm like 3 weeks behind in reading my lectures

and i still got a church event to plan (but it will be over by this sat)

Really looking to semester 6 which is my AMS year which i do a year of research. but first must do well enough as candidates are chosen based on results so if i want to get my first choice i would have to jia you!

last week i went for a clinical placement and yea...

saw a patient with liver failure. sometimes ppl just get sick w/o doing anything to themselves.

anyway moving on from that

yea... i'm still quite scared when i talk to them,

cos its the real thing, not like when u practice with your friends. if u say smth wrong, its ok and u just laugh it off. but with a real patient, its so diff..

plus their accent sometimes make it hard to understand

so placement are like those u see on televisions. except less glam. basically we follow a doctor around while he sees patients, trying to teach us. Then he will ask us questions and stuff. questions like:

what do u see from this patient?
what should you look for?
what sort of questions should you ask?

and sometimes he lets us take a history and do a physical examination.

One time we were in a room for 1 hr plus. and it was kinda boring cos he kept talkin on and on and i was kinda drifting in and out of it. anyway suddenly i was called.

he said "ok lawrence go suit up, you're going to do a physical examination on a patient"

i swear my heart was going at 150 beats. i was shaking la.

when i was wearing the "gown-like thing u see on tv" and the gloves all that was going on in my head was "chill chill chill" and "oh no what if i do smth wrong"

when i was approaching the patient i kinda fumbled my lines abit too also. suddenly all the stuff i practised just went down the drain. its just so diff from practices and i guess i have to get used to it.

still not quite used to the fact that i can get so close and get to examine patients. cos its like i still don think i'm qualified or ready. but i guess this is how we all learn.

but when u put on the gown and the glove, its such a diff feeling. the patient looks at you expectantly and you so want to say "its going to be fine" but you know its not.

helpless and lost are two words i would use...

but i felt it was a good experience and i know if the doctor calls me again, i will be better prepared. ok back to studying...

ps. thinking of doing a hospital attachment during the holidays =)

A matter of perspective

Road tax and car ownership charges have also been lowered to help the middle-income segment. While the recent increase in ERP charges have created some unhappiness, the overall cost of owning a car has actually come down.

-Channel News Asia

At first look, all seems fine.

The govt is doing smth right and i guess that's what CNA was told/is trying to do.

Looking at it, you realize its such a clever use of words.

The cost of OWNING a car has decrease but the kicker is:

The cost of DRIVING a car has increased exponentially.

So now we can own cars but are discouraged to drive them?

i wonder.....

Uni Life

1030 pm and i'm on swanston street walking home with a foot long meatball sub from subway.

(which is my dinner)

This must be uni life

Essays are due in a month's time

Mid sem test is coming up around the same time.

I am two weeks behind in my work.

And i have to plan a church event.

Somehow.. i know i'll make it through.

=)

NDP

On national the group of us (all sg ppl in our course) decided to arrange a get together to sort of celebrate national day.

haha.. like i said b4 there's ard like 20 plus of us and yea we kinda stick together. the melb uni singapore connection if u like.

so we had a pot luck dinner in which we each brought a kind of local food to the party.

so yea, i brought laska haha..

here are some pics.



The girls



The guys

me frying the keropok


all the yummy food



random shots..

if u wanna see more pics just go to facebook

Home

Due to popular demand i've come up with another version of my national song!!!

Happy National Day 2008!!!

(Sang to the tune of Kit Chan's Home)


Whenever I am feeling low...

I look around me and i know

There will always be ERP

Wherever I may choose to go



I will always recall GST

Always on the rise

Look down my wallet and i can cry

Just one trip in Singapore



This is Home... Really?

Even if i'm not Lee..

Where ERP waits for me..

Where my money always go...



This is Home, surely

Where i know you fine me..

This is where.. i wont be alone

For where i go my cashcard goes



When there are gantries to go through

My IU will cry a tune

There is comfort in the knowledge

That my money, they will use

So they build more roads for no cars

And just for Casino..

Just like the river which brings us life

I feel like jumping in now...



This is home.. cant be...

go orchard tio 2.50

Where TP wait for me...

To give me this month's lottery



This is home.. must be..

Go home also tio ERP

Expressway drive 60

No wonder traffic never flow



This is Home, surely

Where i know you fine me..

This is where.. i wont be alone

For where i go my cashcard goes

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National Day

Dear Singapore,

Its been so long.. 43 years for you and 22 years for me... here's to you..

Onward singapore!!!!

I sincerely hope that all will go well for you....

I do hope you recover your losses that you invested. Some 900million rite?

I do hope the ERP gantries do grow cause that can only be good for you and us rite?

I do hope the standard of public transport can go up, as the price has already...

I do hope the new road rules like the red bus lane can deter drivers and get their money? oh no wait is that the plan?

I do hope you will continue to develop "critical thinking", i think its been on ever since i was in 6 or 7 rite?

I do hope you manage to stop the exodus of local talent overseas. I hope its not a result of policy and the system itself?

I do hope the SAF can find more scholars to protect..

I do hope we will find more white horses ...

I hope you can try to consider the fact that results is not everything and even if you say so, your actions do not show?

I hope that when i graduate, there will be something that will pull me back home...

For you are home..

surely........as my senses tell me..

where erp waits for me...

where the money always flow...

this is home.. sadly...

where i know you fine me......

this is where, i wont be alone.....

for this is where my money goes....

(sang to the tune of "Home" by kit chan)

Yours truly,
Me

To Ao

haha.. thanks man.. it means alot...

hows life been for you? back in UK already??

lately your blogpost quite political haha...

suits me lol

What is sucess..

Sometimes u do wonder what is success?

i guess sucess is rather relative...

growing up, i've never had much success, especially academic.

In primary sch i guess ALL my teachers hated me. success in primary school to me meant that my digimon won someone else's. Or that i would catch all 150 pokemons. and all i was hoping for was to pass PSLE which i barely did.

Succes in secondary school was also another relative matter. success in secondary 1 for me meant that i was the top frag for counter strike...

and as a result i failed my secondary 1...

so in secondary 2 i was transferred to normal and then i had my first glimpse of what success was about and what i could actually do if i put in some effort. i didnt have to work that hard and managed to do well enough to get transferred to express and take double pure science and double math. Though that would have to be attributed to my tuition teachers who made me believe i was not dumb, smth that my school teachers instilled in me..

but in secondary 4 i guess i didnt work as hard as i should have and scraped past O levels...

i guess it was still some success, as after i failed secondary 1 i thought that was it...

JC was the worst time where the only success i felt was on the rugby pitch where i did my job and people looked up to me. The classrooms were totally different, where i would sleep in lectures and tutorials. My teachers gave up on me and how can i blame them when i gave up on myself?

The army... was... successful. Considering the fact that i made it out in one piece, made good friends and had a good batch of people.

In Australia, i didnt know what to expect. i was motivated by something. was it success i didnt know. did i have smth to prove to people? that i was not a failure after all? whatever my motives were, i studied like hell.

Would i say i have found direction now? well, i guess certain aspects of my life has changed and i have made some wholesale changes. Whether that is good or not, that is up to those i know to decide.

why the sudden rambling on success?

well i attended the Trinity College Awards ceremony last night. where awards and scholarships were given out.

and the guest of honour was on and on about how we have succeeded. and he posted us a question. On our funeral, what would you want others to say about you?

rich? busy? hardworking? made a difference?

i guess i do not have such big dreams. i wont find a cure for cancer nor win a nobel prize.

all i want to do now is make an impact on others, one way or another.

seeing so many of my friends getting awards and scholarships. sometimes deep inside i wonder whether i would have the chance. its not vital to me. i do not need that recognition.

somehow i have seen past my materialistic/egoistic needs.

though a cash prize would be nice, considering the ridiculous fees i am paying...

All i got last night, was a certificate of academic excellence.

Though small and insignificant compared to others. I just have to look back and around me to know how blessed i am. and there is nothing more i can ask for.

i left wondering what is success and whether at the end of the road will i have done smth good with my life

i left knowing that dozens of us gave up at least 2 scholarships to study medicine. to reject my first scholarship was really sad as i never thought i would receive one ever in my life.

i left with a new motivation to study even harder, not for recognition or approval. but to use this opportunity i am blessed with to do smth good. and even if no one comes to my funeral. i would leave knowing that i had done smth. While leaving the world a better place would be a strech. Making those around me happy would be a blessing.

Hi my name is...

Ever had to introduce yourself to others?

I mean like say Hi my name is ________ and i'm from ... so on so forth....

In my new tutorial the teacher asked us to introduce ourselves to the class and say 2 interesting things about yourself... i was 2nd in line and didnt have much time to think...

and yea....

I said... my name is Lawrence, i'm from Singapore and erm.... i'm 22...

YES...

i have nth interesting about me.. or at least, nothing that comes to mind...

and another time,

i was playing this game at orientation where u add an adjective in front of your name to introduce yousrself to others...

eg..

Brillant Bryan...

Dashing Daniel...

Charming Charles...

guess what i said...

Lame Lawrence

which is close enough to Lam Lawrence...

sad right my life...

i THINK i used to be interesting....