Sorry

Hey guys,

Sorry for the long hiatus...

Anyways, i've just been swamped with stuff, drowning in my work already.

So its now like week 6 of 14 of my second semester. realli cant wait to go back to sg..

The weather is freezing now. one of the coldest august in 4 years so yea..

anyway i'm doing my Health practice essay(25oo words)

and i'm behind in my weekly research

and i'm like 3 weeks behind in reading my lectures

and i still got a church event to plan (but it will be over by this sat)

Really looking to semester 6 which is my AMS year which i do a year of research. but first must do well enough as candidates are chosen based on results so if i want to get my first choice i would have to jia you!

last week i went for a clinical placement and yea...

saw a patient with liver failure. sometimes ppl just get sick w/o doing anything to themselves.

anyway moving on from that

yea... i'm still quite scared when i talk to them,

cos its the real thing, not like when u practice with your friends. if u say smth wrong, its ok and u just laugh it off. but with a real patient, its so diff..

plus their accent sometimes make it hard to understand

so placement are like those u see on televisions. except less glam. basically we follow a doctor around while he sees patients, trying to teach us. Then he will ask us questions and stuff. questions like:

what do u see from this patient?
what should you look for?
what sort of questions should you ask?

and sometimes he lets us take a history and do a physical examination.

One time we were in a room for 1 hr plus. and it was kinda boring cos he kept talkin on and on and i was kinda drifting in and out of it. anyway suddenly i was called.

he said "ok lawrence go suit up, you're going to do a physical examination on a patient"

i swear my heart was going at 150 beats. i was shaking la.

when i was wearing the "gown-like thing u see on tv" and the gloves all that was going on in my head was "chill chill chill" and "oh no what if i do smth wrong"

when i was approaching the patient i kinda fumbled my lines abit too also. suddenly all the stuff i practised just went down the drain. its just so diff from practices and i guess i have to get used to it.

still not quite used to the fact that i can get so close and get to examine patients. cos its like i still don think i'm qualified or ready. but i guess this is how we all learn.

but when u put on the gown and the glove, its such a diff feeling. the patient looks at you expectantly and you so want to say "its going to be fine" but you know its not.

helpless and lost are two words i would use...

but i felt it was a good experience and i know if the doctor calls me again, i will be better prepared. ok back to studying...

ps. thinking of doing a hospital attachment during the holidays =)