Cravings

I'm craving for a PIANO!!!!

i really regret not learning piano properly when i had the chance...

i realli regret not learning ANYTHING properly when i had the chance...

damn sad... i think the closest i have ever reached to being "sucessful" is in sports and yet... i didnt take the time to learn anyone well enough and just like skip from one to another...

but now...

i want to relearn how to play the piano.... haha...

and i wish i have a piano here is AUS.... anyone wanna sponsor?? haha

i believe i have zero musical talent...

and i'm sure my ex piano teacher will agree...

i'm gg to put it to the test when i'm back for hols... haha...

for once, i want to see that whether i can learn smth well if i put my mind to it...

Relief

well i got back the results of my test and it was not as bad as i thought it would be...

while its not excatly superb, there is still room for improvements and i'll mug harder...

its already week 9 and week 14 is the last week of sch... exams are drawing near and i cant wait to go home haha....

and i cant wait to say i'm in 2nd year Uni!!!!

i know i can make it...

and i cant wait for year 3 which will be my AMS year but that means we will all split up and go our different ways.... sad but oh well... long way to go...

just finished listening to online lect... bored now... update soon. haha

Wake up call

I'll always rmbr 09/09/2008

Its the day i got my wake up call... and  i think i've received quite a few in my life already.

1. when i failed my secondary 1

2. after i failed my A levels

3. The current one now..

so i just had my test... the first test that will contribute to my final mark..

before this, yes i was a little stressed but still within my comfort zone i guess. i did not have a strong urge to really excel (partly because i know i cant really), i just wanted to enjoy the course and get the AMS subject i want.

but the test was a wake up call...

my "welcome" to med school i suppose...

the test was yea... bad... but i guess i still think i will do ok (because i do not have high expectations)

at first i was thinking wah i still quite comfortable, doing relatively ok and not stressing too much...

then BAM!!!

the test shook my perception and rocked my world...

now... i really must mug liaoz... just to maintain my results from semester 1 (which i'm really quite satisfied already)

but yea.. i'll strive to improve and hopefully do what i want...

also i think that wah ppl in NUS work so hard learn so much i kinda think that will i know less then them. i was thinking that Melb Uni got less QC control on us..

haha.. then the test was like "in your face, here's our quality control"

so yea...

i guess the message is "Welcome, This is Med Sch"

PS sorry for the change in address has some "technical" difficulties. haha

Uncertain

Sometimes you go to a place and you wonder whether you fit it or not...

i guess fitting in is one thing but the most impt question to ask is "do you belong there"

sometimes i wonder whether i do belong in my course...

i see so many bright minds everyday and sometimes u just have that tinge of self-doubt.

will you do a good enough job when u graduate?

i mean... i have to... there's sooo much at stake...

but then, there are ten reasons i think i dont belong here..

maybe its just exams stress but here goes:

1. i'm the only singaporean who is in this course with over 8 points for O levels
2. the only one with no bio/physics background.. (poor science foundation)
3. i seem to forget all i learn really fast
4. i love to sleep too much =)
5. i take too long to learn, like more than double the time ppl take
6. my forte is still think lies more towards the artsy side
7. my tuition fees are ridiculous. and i don know if i can graduate.
8. i dont really want to compete in such a cut throat environment (mayb cos i'll lose bad)
9. i'm one of 3 not form top-5 jc and u all know what happen to my A levels
10. i may not get to specialise in what i wan...

sigh

if i choose not to continue, i can take an "out" option in my third year.

just get my Bachelor of Medical Science and say good night...

but yea...

i'll press on... take each day as it comes...

1940 to go.....

AHHHHHHH

ANATOMY!!!!!!

Photo scanned from Netter's Human Atlas of Anatomy

well so i just spent like 2 hrs doing hardcore anatomy...

see until my eyes pain haha...

haha.. but i guess i have to say... i love anatomy!!! =)

imagine that pic above but like over 500 pages of it.. -.- haha

but yea, its realli cool but damn hard to visualise and remember

nxt week i get to dissect! hope i can understand it more

and i just realised... eating 2 slices of garlic pizza 15 mins before dissection pract is not smart haha..

felt abit nauseous but nth happened =)

Updates

Well so so so...

Been mugging for one day.. well.. almost... damn sianz liaoz...

i find that yea i really like what i'm studying.. but for now, i still don really get the whole pic..

i hope i get it faster.. not like last sem when only 1 week b4 exam then i got it all...

this sem need to do well to get the AMS subject in year 3 i want...

Anyways yea on friday...

i was walking towards the medical building for a class...

you know sometimes when u walk u can hear ppl talking even if u nv really try to...
like overhear accidently

yea... i overheard 3 convos along the way...
though i didnt get the whole convo cos i was walking quite fast..

i could hear the gist. ie the keywords/synopsis/outline whatever u want to call it.

here they are:

1st convo keywords:
osmotic pressure
emesis

2nd convo keywords:
short gut syndrome
metabolism

3rd convo keywords:
histology
carcinoma

i was like.. wah lao... walk along the way also hear this kinda stuff damn sad...

sigh, now u know why we got no life..

in sch we learn, do lab

outside we research

free time go read journal, practice clinical skills...

walking anywhere also talk abt work

sigh...

and i think my whole life will be like this...

suddenly i find that when i go back sg i wanna work but i don wan anything to do with what i'm studying.

any lobangs anyone? haha

A Spring in my step!

=)

It's the first day of spring... new season new resolutions. haha...

1. i hope to catch on on my work

2. i hope to get back to exercising.

and i finally finished my 2500 word essay. i hope it will be good.

anyways i just got bad news. i heard the 2003-2005 average mark for my current semester is onli 70%. damn sad la.. i need 70% if i want to go overseas during my 3rd year. haiz... wish me luck..

anyway got a test coming up on the 9th of sept. 35 more lects to go =(

and i added more books to my current selection.

here goes

Pathophysiology of diseases

Anatomedia

Medical Microbiology

Clinically Orientated Anatomy

Clinical Examination

Biochemistry

Colour Textbook of Histology

Netter's Human Atlas of Anatomy

Physiology

Pathologic Basis of Diesease

Pharmocology

Current Essentials of Medicine

Signs and Symptoms

Pocket Guide to Diagnostic Tests

i think there alone got close to 400 bucks already. lol...

but its ok la... for some "light" reading...

update me ppl!