TRUST

I guess ever since i've came back to Melbourne in 2009. Alot of things have been different.

Which has lead me to think and reflect upon various expects of my life.

Such as:

Relationships

Studies/Expectations

Goals/Resolution

What will I invest my time in? What do i hope to achieve? What will i learn?

I guess the hardest lessons in life cannot be truly learnt without experience. It may sound like a cliche. But i guess its true in certain aspects of my life.

I guess a really important lesson i've learnt is Trust.

Well what is trust. The generic definition the dictionary gives is that we perceive to be trust. What the people believe trust to be.

We hear it in songs.

Our friends tell us that.

Our soulmates yearn for that.

Children want it from their parents.

But what are it's implications? What are the sacrifices?

Can u trust something you cannot see? Can you believe in something that does not exist?

People wait a life time to learn how to trust. And some wait a lifetime waiting for their trust to be reciprocated, only just to find that it's never there.

Is trust the hope we hold onto?

Is trust the fantasy we hope to have?

What aspects of our lives really require trust?

I do not claim to have the answer to that question.

Putting religious matters aside where i feel a certain degree of trust is crucial, i feel the relationships we build with each other deserves a large amount of trust.

However, do we really have what it takes to summon ridiculous amounts of trust that smashes all perceptions of rationality?

To be able to hold on to an idea/concept/fairytale where every single piece of evidence says otherwise.

Always looking out for signs that will get you through each day. And when you feel that it's slipping through your grasps, you hold onto it tighter, unaware of the long term consequences it has.

The weird thing about humans is we have needs. We have feelings. Some people let emotions drive them and some drive away all emotions. That's analogous to individuals who trust and those who don't.

Me? I'm optimisically holding on to a pessimistic situation. I hold on to an idea despite nothing backing me up. No one to catch me when i fall down the flights of trust i've climbed steadily over the years.

I believe i matter and while i may be forgotten or forsaken, i will try not to be forlorn.

Because i trust. I have to and its all i have.

I believe one can pray to be loved, but never ever pray not to love.

So what is trust to me?

It

Takes
Ridiculous
Unconditional
Sacrifices
Truly

But in

True
Relationships
Unconditional
Sacrifices are
Timeless

So hold on. Trust. Because even the worst form of disappointment can be negated by the best form of trust.